112


smile, my dear

there’s so little time
in this world,
so few are these moments
we smile anymore

from this lonely heart
to yours, one day
we’ll find a place
where this darkness
breaks

though it’s gone now,
and we stumble and fall
and give up
what little hope
we have

imagine what i would give
for just one more smile,
for just one more chance
to touch your bruised
and battered heart,
again

№ 75: Lost Love



3


what becomes of you

or i
if neither will surrender,
throw down arms
and time-worn trifles,
give humility
a fighting chance?

put pride away
in some dark closet,
— his services
no longer required —
lock the door
and toss the key

it’s not his fault
just his nature;
a timeout would do him well

toss the key,
my dear…
as far as you possibly can

i’ll wait,

as always, i’ll wait

i tossed mine
long, long ago

№ 74: Lost Love



2


when we kiss

in the shadows,
i always wonder why:
why you hide
in plain sight,
why you hide
from me

we’ve done this dance
already, too many times to count,
tiptoed around
an inconvenient fact,
the one you wish
you could un-know

but that’s not how
this works, my dear,
— i’ve asked —
you can’t just run away
— i’ve asked —

distance doesn’t seem to matter;
the heart knows what it wants

i wait for you to understand…
to hear me, see me,
look me in the eyes

and tell me,

               this can never be

№ 63: Full


i

made the little noises,
pounded fists
into

solid,
earth

seeking something
that could not,

never,
— not never,
i hoped,
i prayed —
be found

and the tiny
depressions,
just like me;

tiny, nothing
to whom
i owed everything

but it hurt
all the same,
and i wandered

crying,
awkwardly at first
, because i did not know,
had not learned
some autodidact!

how

for whom
did the chill
spread,
and rage and guilt
seek to protect
my broken heart

and for whom
did i yet hold

a hopeful breath?