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sometimes we wait,
because we fear
the pain of leaving the past behind,
letting go of sorrows long-suffered
in silence, choosing instead
to pass the time
with tit-for-tat pettiness and denial
we’ve masked with hollow smiles
and prideful stubborness

we can turn away,
run as fast as we can
back to the safety
of the devils we know,
settle into the comfort and certainty
only broken trust can bring

we can fight
until our bodies fail us,
challenge the repressed whispers
of hearts wanting more
than a return to the status quo,
of souls trembling
at the sight of a sequel
we know is in the works

sometimes we wait
and miss what’s standing
right in front of us,
dismiss honesty and something better
as usurpers of thrones
belonging to fantasies
we no longer believe in

sometimes we wait
when all we should do
is move forward

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we move slowly now,
in cautious wonder,
breath held tight, close
to hearts, anxious,
expectant

scared to see
what lies beyond
the shadow,
through the thinning veil
that blinds souls
desperate for one another

118


there is so much joy
in that smile, so much hope
in those expectant,
unknowing eyes — his eyes
lost in the moment, too busy
swimming in hers
to see, to recognize
what’s right in front of him.

he is exposed — consumed
by fire, by the certainty
of her hand
reaching firmly for his,
by the rhythm of her pulse
beating in time
with his own.

but he can never know
the heart he seeks, yearns
for, wants to hold
close… the distance,
he cannot overcome.

he can never touch
her love
the way his love
desires,

and he can never hear
the words
her lips
cannot utter.

but his heart, so ready
to love
and to be loved,
smiles,
mistaking her loneliness
for fire.

117


there is a space
just beyond the horizon,
a brightness
lingering on the thin line
that separates today
from tomorrow

beyond the here and now,
cascades of color
pierce the velvet veil of heaven
and while we sleep,
those ancient eyes
treat us to their mysteries,
let flow
truths only darkness can reveal

our space,
once so far away —
still warm, golden
— brings forth the day

116


our words linger
on subtle lips,
flow in stops
and starts,
break the languor
that broods regret,

they leave me open
and unafraid

115


driving these winding roads,
racing from moment to moment,
racing from this
and that,
and always just passing through;
i’ve begun to wonder
when i’ll slow down
and where

more and more,
i question: why?
is it just me?
where is my heart,
where is it taking me?
does it know
what it seeks?

life has a funny way
of distracting us,
of making us doubt
who we are,
of challenging
what we think we know
and want;
it’s perverse
and uncomfortable,
but, i suppose,
that’s why this is called
growth

sometimes,
all we really seek
is a little room to breathe,
a momentary pause
along the way,
a chance to stop
and enjoy the view

114


just us,
singing in our broken voices,
laughing until our sides hurt
and our mouths are sore,
dancing like there’s no tomorrow,
like time itself
has stopped

here
and now,
you and i